|Suicide is Painless|
|Season 6, episode 18|
|Teddy and Owen in Iraq in the past.|
March 25, 2010
|“||Dying isn’t easy. The body was designed to stay alive; thick skull, strong heart, keen senses. When the body starts to fail, medicine takes over. Surgeons are arrogant enough to think there's no one they can’t save. Like I said dying isn’t easy. Living is better than dying... until it's not. But even if letting a person die is the right thing to do, it's not what surgeons are built for. We are arrogant and competitive. We don’t like to lose and death feels like a loss even when we know it’s not. We know it’s time. We know it’s right. We know we did everything we could. It is hard to shake that feeling that you could've done more.||”|
When Teddy's patient seeks to end treatment and her life, she turns to Hunt for help. The situation triggers Hunt's memories of his life at war and his past relationship with Teddy. Meanwhile, Callie and Arizona have a difference in opinion on what their future holds, and Richard tries to adjust to his role as a surgeon.
As Owen can't sleep, he gets out of the bed and goes to the living room. He exercizes, eats a little and watches some TV. About two hours later, he sneaks back into bed with Cristina and only a minute later, the alarm goes off. They tell each other good morning and Cristina gets out of bed.
Teddy walks into Kim's room. Kim says she feels ready. Today is the day. Sean claims he's doing good, too.
Teddy finds Owen for a consult on Kim's case. Teddy resected a second mass from Kim's lung two months ago, but the cancer had already spread too much. Kim was readmitted last week and she's still having difficulties breathing. As Teddy tells Owen that Kim doesn't want to be intubated, Owen doesn't see what else they can do. Teddy says Kim wants them to help her die.
Teddy explains to Sean and Kim that since the state requires two physicians's signatures, she asked Dr. Hunt to consult. Kim was declared mentally fit, she only has 6 months left to live, and Teddy's gone over all of her treatment options. This serves as Kim's second oral request. She has to tell Teddy she wants to die twice with at least 15 days between the two times. Sean thinks she's having second thoughts, but Kim is sure. She takes off her oxygen mask and states she wants to die through physician-assisted suicide. Owen suddenly walks out. Kim asks Teddy how long it takes to die. Sean doesn't feel ready for it just yet, but Teddy tells Kim it takes about 45 minutes.
Arizona and Mark are in Callie's lab, where Callie is working on her cartilage. Mark is surprised to see how much you learn about other people if you stay upright. He feels really grown. Arizona kisses Callie, whom she's proud of, and walks out. Callie then blurts out to Mark that Arizona doesn't want kids, ever. Even though Callie doesn't want to be the crazy girl with the aching womb, Mark advises her to tell Arizona that she wants kids.
Derek is going over administration stuff in a conference room as Meredith appears in the doorway. He pauses the meeting and she tells him about a tumor that Shadow Shepherd is going to let her operate on. "That's it?" Derek asks, and then returns to work.
Alex, Charles, and Jackson are in the ambulance bay, waiting for an incoming ambulance. Mark concludes it must be Nicole behind the wheel then. Charles says he'd love to hit her ass as Richard joins them. The ambulance arrives and as she presents the case, a man with fractures following a heliskiing accident, Charles checks her out, which she notices.
Teddy finds Owen and asks what that was all about. Owen doesn't agree with the plan and he doesn't think doctors should help people die. Teddy, in contrary, understands and thinks of it as an act of mercy. Owen states Teddy is killing Kim by writing the prescription. Teddy says she'll find someone else and walks off. Watching her walk off triggers Owen to think back to his past in the army.
A flashbacks shows him and his team, including Teddy, play soccer in a desert as planes fly over. Owen and Teddy score and cheer. The doctors grab their stuff as a helicopter lands with patients for them. Owen stays a little behind and watches Teddy walk off.
In a similar way, Teddy walks down the hallway in the present.
Mark, Callie, Richard, and Jackson are in a trauma room with Nick, the heliskiing man.
Meanwhile, Alex, Lexie, and Bailey bring in Phil, one of Nick's friends who went heliskiing with him. Nick yells that he needs to get better so they can run with the bulls in Pamplona next year. Owen counts and they all move Phil off the gurney and onto an ER bed.
A flashbacks shows Owen and Teddy working in the medical tent. The wounded soldiers are victims of a car bomb. They have to improvise as they're low on supplies. Corporal Burnett informs Captain Dan that the Command's ordered them to move back. Teddy says she's almost got her patient stabilized. The captain orders her to ride on the medivac with a couple of patients. Owen offers to trade places with Teddy as he knows she hates helicopters, but she says she's fine. They'll see each other back there.
Bailey asks Owen if they should scan the patient first, bringing Owen back to the present. Owen tells Bailey to take the case and walks off. Bailey asks Tommy, who was with Nick and Phil, why he didn't get hurt in the avalanche. Because he hadn't jumped out the helicopter yet. Nick and Phil feel sorry for him, as it was "friggin' awesome". Bailey tends to disagree.
Cristina walks into Kim's room, as she heard from Altman that Kim requested that her pain meds be lowered. They make her fuzzy, and she doesn't want to be fuzzy today. Cristina heard that Kim's going home to die, but Kim says she's changed her mind. Not about the suicide, she says when she sees how surprised Sean is. She decided she wants to do it in the hospital so that Sean doesn't have to deal with her body afterwards. Kim says they can make it homey in her by getting rid of the machines and bringing some stuff and some wine. She thinks Sean will need the wine, because she noticed he seems scared. She has no idea how he's feeling, but he tells her not to worry about him and claims he's not feeling anything. Kim doesn't think that's the truth, but he just goes off to get the stuff and the wine. Kim tells Cristina it's always the same fights, them refusing to tell you how they're feeling, even when you're dying. Kim thinks they just really don't know how they're feeling. Cristina notices she's short of breath and puts the oxygen mask back on.
Teddy finds Mark and asks him how he feels about physician-assisted suicide. He thinks it's them getting to know each other, but Teddy informs him it's not that. She informs him about Kim's case.
Jim Nelson and Meredith are studying their patient's scans. He's allowing her to debulk the tumor. April suddenly comes and takes the scans, as Shepherd requested them. Meredith holds on to them and syas it's her tumor, but April snatches the scans and says it's Shepherd's now.
Owen steals a chart from Tyler's nurses station.
A flashbacks shows Owen, a patient and the rest of his platoon driving through the desert. They can't reach the base, but the Captain doesn't worry because they know they're coming. It's probably the storm. Owen assures the patient that they're going to get him stabilized and then home. He asks if Teddy got there yet, but they haven't heard. The Captain is sure that his girl is fine. Owen seriously tells him they're just friends. "You tell me something," the Captain smilingly says and suddenly, there's an explosion.
Owen crawls out of the wrecked vehicle and sees a severed body part. As his Captain screams if he's alright, Owen finds their patient, dead. Dan thinks they've hit an I.E.D. As Owen walks around the vehicle, he finds that everyone's died. Then he sees Dan trapped under the vehicle.
Cristina calling Owen's name brings him back to the present. He stole Kim's chart and he paged her as he saw she ordered pulmonary function tests last week. He wants to know if she did a bronchoscopy during these tests. He says these tests may gave false positives, so maybe Kim's decided to kill herself because of incorrect data. Cristina wonders why he's interrogating her and says that they probably did a bronchoscopy as it's routine. Owen shoutingly asks if probably is good enough for her and Altman. She asks what's going on, but he walks off.
Nick tells Tommy to call his wife when he goes into surgery and to downplay the injuries. Meanwhile, Mark takes care of the frostbite on Phil's fingers. Phil says this is worse than when he broke his ankle on Kilimanjaro. Callie says they're hardcore. Nick says they these kind of trips are the only thing to keep their blood moving, as they have boring jobs. Tommy wants to show Mark a picture of him on top of the mountain, but accidentally shows him a picture of his daughter. Mark shows the picture to Callie to prove that she does wants to kids.
Meredith finds Derek and April and yells at him for stealing her surgery. She wants to scrub in, but he doesn't want her to switch services as it'll look like favoritism. April tries to calm her down, but Meredith yells at her to stop talking. Meredith yells to everyone around that Derek stole her surgery and walks off. Richard asks Derek if everything is okay, which Derek says it is. Richard suggests they get lunch together, but Derek can't go to the cafeteria anymore as people needing things from him come up to him all the time there. Owen comes over and asks Derek for a minute. Case in point.
Arizona, Callie, and Mark sit down with Owen with their lunch. Mark continues to urge Callie to tell Arizona that she wants kids. Richard comes over too, but as they all seem to find it weird having him around, he goes to another table. As Arizona asks Callie and Mark what's going on between them, Teddy comes over to ask Owen what his problem is. She yells at him for going to Shepherd behind her back for a case he doesn't even know. So, she wants to know what his problem is. Everyone is looking at them, and he just walks off.
Mark finds Richard eating alone in a conference room and informs him on the argument between Teddy and Owen. Everyone's talking about it. "Not to me," Richard says, adding that all conversation stops when he comes in. Mark explains you don't talk locker room talk in front of the coach. Richard points out he's not the coach anymore. Mark says he's only a little bit like everybody else, but mostly he's still the coach. It's a sign of respect, and he'd be wrong to take it any other way.
Teddy explains the pulmonary function tests to Kim again. Sean asks why they're doing these again, as they did them already last week. Sean thinks that that means the test results may have been wrong. Teddy tells him questions have been raised. Sean wants to know by whom, because he's spent the entire day thinking his wife's going to die today, so if there's a chance she's gonna get better, he wants to know. Cristina says that won't happen. The tests are just the hospital covering its ass. Sean understands and Teddy thanks Cristina.
In the OR, Richard asks a nurse to see if Bailey's on her way. He whispers to Alex that he'd hit the nurse hard if he weren't married. Jackson, Charles, and Alex are shocked. Alex says he thinks Richard meant to say he'd hit that. Bailey, having just entered, says she thinks he didn't want to say that at all.
Jackson meets Meredith in the scrub room. He's heard her yelling that Derek stole her surgery. Using a Whoville metaphor, Jackson tells her not to be too mad about it and just shine in the aneurysm surgery she has with Nelson now.
Lexie staples Phil's head wound and his screams make Owen continue to think back to the death of his platoon.
Owen is doing his best to save Dan's arm, while Dan himself is putting pressure on an open wound in his neck with his other arm. Owen had to take off Dan's wedding ring as his hands was swelling and he uses a belt to tie off Dan's bleeding arm. Dan loses consciousness, causing the wound to squirt blood. Owen quickly tries to stop the bleeding.
Derek finds Owen and tells him Kim's second bronchoscopy confirmed that nothing more can be done. Sloan signed off on the suicide. Owen says he won't let Derek kill him. Derek says the patient is a woman and no one's killing her, she's choosing to die. Derek sees something's wrong and orders Owen to go home.
In the desert, it's gone dark. Owen is still keeping pressure and keeping Dan awake. He says they have to move him and to find something to pack the wound until someone comes. Owen tries to move him, but Dan screams in pain. Dan is giving up. Owen's been saying for hours that help is coming. Dan says it's okay. He asks Owen to stay with him and say a hail mary with him. So they do. Dan wants Owen to make sure Lisa gets his ring, and not use it to propose to Altman or something. They laugh and Owen says he's engaged to Beth. Dan orders Owen to move his hand so that he can die, but Owen refuses.
Owen is standing outside in the rain in front of the hospital, and goes back inside.
Callie tells Tommy that Nick's recovery process will be long, so they have to call his wife and be honest about his injuries. Tommy says he called his wife to call Nick's wife, as she's better at those things. Callie finds it odd that he's scared of his friend's wife, given all their trips. Tommy confesses he was scared at all of their trips. He hated every minute of them, but he went with Phil and Nick because they're a team and they love it. He just sucks it up for them.
Teddy is in Kim's room, which has been made homey, and writes her the prescription for the suicide drugs. Teddy can't actually give her the drugs, but she can get the prescription filled at the hospital pharmacy. Owen barges in and asks Kim what if they find a cure. It's a long shot, but he thinks her life is worth gambling on a long shot. Teddy threatens to call security on him, but Sean would like to hear Kim's answer. Kim replies that there's this time where death stops being scary. It's the hope that starts being scary, because it's not true. Even if they found a cure tomorrow, it's too late for her. Hanging on to hope maybe makes him feel better, but it makes her feel alone. She doesn't want to die alone and she's not afraid of this. She wonders why Owen is. So is Teddy.
Sean finds Owen sitting on a bench outside the hospital and tells him the pharmacy wouldn't take his credit card. There were some problems so he had to go to the cash machine. He's been running around to get enough money to buy pills that are going to kill his wife. He's got them now. Sean sits down. Owen tells him there'll be moment when Kim dies. A moment where all of Kim's pain will disappear and Sean will feel relieved. He'll know with absolute certainty that he did the right thing. Just for a moment.
In a flashback, Dan begs Owen to let him go, saying it's okay. This hurts him. As he keeps saying it's okay, Owen lets go.
Owen tells Sean to hold on to that moment, because all the rest is just his own garbage.
Callie tells Phil and Nick will be in physical therapy for six months, but with some luck, they'll be ready for their trip next year. Tommy pretends to be enthusiastic with them, but Callie tells Nick and Phil that Tommy hates this stuff. He just does it for them. Callie apologizes for her rant, but she likes to see people keep their legs. Phil says he's starting his own business, which keeps his blood running too, so he's with Tommy on this. Nick says he actually wanted to go wine tasting in Napa instead of the heliskiing. Callie urges them to go Napa then, which they agree to do. They cheer.
Derek finds Richard in his old office, which looks different to Richard know. Richard knows why Derek stole Meredith's surgery. He was jealous of her, missing the adrenaline of back-to-back surgeries. Richard understands and advises him to schedule himself a surgery once a day, an hour earlier than everybody else normally starts. Also, he doesn't actually have to sign all the paperwork as Patricia is an excellent forger. And if he eats with someone else in the cafeteria, people most likely will leave him alone. He could eat with Richard, for example. Derek thanks him for the tips.
Sean gives his wife the pills. She takes them with a sip of wine. Sean confesses he's scared. He lies down next to Kim and they comfort each other. Teddy watches them from outside the room.
Meredith is reading in bed as Derek walks in. He apologizes, knowing she's mad. She says she's not mad, as she's in Whoville. She laughs and kisses him.
Callie tells Arizona she has something to say and that she really cares for her. Arizona thinks she's breaking up with her and thinks Callie is one of these fake lesbians, just taking a vacation in lesbian land. Callie tells her to stop talking and says it's not a bad thing. She wants a baby at some point in her life. She really has to have a baby. Arizona lets go of Callie's hands.
Teddy visits Mark at his place. She says she helped her patient die today, but she doesn't want to talk about it. They kiss and start undressing.
Owen is lying awake again next to Cristina.
He thinks back to letting go of Dan's wound and Dan dying only seconds later. Owen closes Dan's eyes and not long after, a helicopter with Teddy on it finds him. Both she and Owen are happy to see each other again. The helicopter lands.
Owen is doing push-ups in the living room as Cristina comes in, asking what he's doing. He says he couldn't sleep. She asks if he's okay. He says he is and tells her to go back to bed. She wants to know what he's thinking, but he says he's thinking nothing. He tells her again to go back to bed. So she does. He continues doing push-ups as he remembers the soccer game with Teddy, Dan and another colleague.
- Ellen Pompeo as Dr. Meredith Grey
- Sandra Oh as Dr. Cristina Yang
- Katherine Heigl as Dr. Izzie Stevens (credit only)
- Justin Chambers as Dr. Alex Karev
- Chandra Wilson as Dr. Miranda Bailey
- James Pickens, Jr. as Dr. Richard Webber
- Sara Ramírez as Dr. Callie Torres
- Eric Dane as Dr. Mark Sloan
- Chyler Leigh as Dr. Lexie Grey
- Kevin McKidd as Dr. Owen Hunt
- Jessica Capshaw as Dr. Arizona Robbins
- Patrick Dempsey as Dr. Derek Shepherd
- Kim Raver as Dr. Teddy Altman
- Richard T. Jones as Captain Dan
- Sara Gilbert as Kim Allen
- Robert Baker as Dr. Charles Percy
- Sarah Drew as Dr. April Kepner
- Jesse Williams as Dr. Jackson Avery
- Derek Cecil as Sean Allen
- Lance Barber as Phil
- Zachary Knower as Nick Kelsey
- Adam Kulbersh as Tommy
- Phil Abrams as Dr. Nelson
- Moe Irvin as Nurse
- Nicole Cummins as Paramedic Nicole
- Aaron Perilo as Gekko
- Kinsey McLean as Billy Linneman
- Seth McLaughlin as Corporal Burnett
- Tristen MacDonald as Sgt. Rebecca Cohen
|"Holding Out For Love"||Ashtar Command||
|"Hold On"||Angus and Julia Stone||
|"Static Waves"||Andrew Belle feat. Katie Herzig||
|"Draw Your Swords"||Angus and Julia Stone||
|"Abandon Ship"||Sorry Kisses||
Notes and TriviaEdit
- This episode's title originated from the song Suicide is Painless, originally sung by Johnny Mandel.
- This episode scored 11.57 million viewers.
- This episode focuses heavily on Owen and his time in Iraq.
- Arizona says the phrase "pulls the trigger", which could also foreshadow the events in the season finale.
- This episode marks the last one in which Katherine Heigl is credited, although she didn't appear in it.
- Richard: If I wasn't happily married - I'd hit her, I'd hit her hard.
- Alex: Sir, I think you wanted to say is - I'd hit that.
- Miranda: I don't think you wanted to say that - at all.
A complete overview of this episode's crew can be found here.
|Grey's Anatomy Season 6|
|#01||"Good Mourning"||#09||"New History"||#17||"Push"|
|#02||"Goodbye"||#10||"Holidaze"||#18||"Suicide is Painless"|
|#03||"I Always Feel Like Somebody's Watchin' Me"||#11||"Blink"||#19||"Sympathy for the Parents"|
|#04||"Tainted Obligation"||#12||"I Like You So Much Better When You're Naked"||#20||"Hook, Line and Sinner"|
|#05||"Invasion"||#13||"State of Love and Trust"||#21||"How Insensitive"|
|#06||"I Saw What I Saw"||#14||"Valentine's Day Massacre"||#22||"Shiny Happy People"|
|#07||"Give Peace a Chance"||#15||"The Time Warp"||#23||"Sanctuary"|
|#08||"Invest in Love"||#16||"Perfect Little Accident"||#24||"Death and All His Friends"|
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